I hate what I’ve become, I hate the fact that I’m not the same Tomasz I was back in the day. But there’s a monster who shadows this part me that can’t escape. I wish I could go back to the quiet, shy soul that didn’t really talk much and just didn’t have anything say. But this monster is taking control of me and it made me a different person. Sometimes I think I’m being myself, but really I’m thinking I’m someone else. I wish I could change and maybe people will think highly different of me. This beast, monster who lives in me is haunting me day and night, but I just don’t know how to fight it.
I went through one of the worst things I could ever go through in my life, it’s still haunting me all day. I felt like I was dead and I wasn’t gonna return to live again. But someone I believe who was my grandfather I believe saved my best friend and I from getting hurt or even worse……DEATH. I never want to experience something so horrible again in my life. Something so scary has affected me to learn from it and keep my eye around my surroundings. It’s so good to feel and be alive. I got a second chance.